Welcoming 2022 (?)

To be honest, reflecting on the past year, I totally had no idea. Because I have no record. There’s no specific or any big event that changes my life.

Then I tried harder to remember. Last Friday on Ramadhan month, my ex boss told me that he’d resigned from his position as director. He’d be a commissioner instead. I was so sad but at the same time, I finally get my own ticked time. Because I promised myself, the reason I resigned from the company would be because my ex boss had moved out. And that’s exactly what happened. I cried on my way home and told one of my best friend about this. Then I effectively searched for a new job.

Ex boss: we’re no longer boss and staff. so don’t treat me like one anymore. we’re friends now.
Me: I’m actually sad but also happy because I’ve been waiting for this time and now I finally also can take my own move.

Since that day, he’s become my mentor (in life, business, and investing). 1st real mentor I ever have. I even consulted about my new jobs offering with him and he’s been so objective. We had lunch once. We do have our very own agendas for our own lives. But still, we both have clear boundaries, meet at the midline, discuss objectively, and totally have freedom to make decisions along with the risks. What a healthy circle. I’m grateful for that. Even my parents keep telling me about how lucky I am to know such a person in my life.

God’s time is always on time. I got a new job at the end of July 2021, new environment, real place to grow, and be the person whom I wanna be. I’ve got to catch up with this.

I also got a new best friend in mid August (coincided with Indonesia’s independence day). He helped me to grow. A lot. In a very perfect way I’ve known. But I had to let him go. I initially thought that we’re gonna celebrate our 5th month in Jan 2022 (would be nice if we could) but he already has his own timeline and I must support him. Sad, for sure. Just at the time when I thought that my life was finally perfect and complete, God want me to let go again.

Just at the time when I successfully gathered my courage and was excitedly ready to face next year, my heart broke. In the very end of the year. But I can’t let myself down. This should be the time that I put whole trust in God. To fully surrender. Until I looked back and was aware about what I still have left, I can bounce back and keep myself on track.

People say, “fall 10, get up 12” right? This is what I need for life. God is enough. And I start recording every step that I take from now so that I can see precisely how much I’ve grown to be a person whom I wanna be.

So, welcome 2022. I’m ready as long as God is with me.